Last updated: January 2025
I did the math seventeen times. Used three different calculators. Called my insurance company twice.
The answer was always the same: I'd have to spend $34,000 of my own money before my health insurance would meaningfully help with anything.
That's not a typo. Thirty-four thousand dollars.
That's when I closed my laptop, walked to my wife, and said, "I'm going back to corporate."
The Math That Broke Me
Here's the exact breakdown that ended my self-employment dream:
Monthly Premium: $2,000 Annual Premium Cost: $24,000 Annual Deductible: $10,000 Total Before Insurance Helps: $34,000
Let that sink in. I had to pay $24,000 just to have insurance, then another $10,000 in medical bills before they'd cover a single prescription, a single doctor visit, a single anything beyond a basic checkup.
$34,000. That's more than many people make in a year. That's a down payment on a house. That's a new car. That's my kid's college fund.
That's what I had to pay before insurance would start doing what insurance is supposed to do: help pay for healthcare.
How We Got to This Insane Number
The Premium Disaster
When I left my corporate job in 2022, my employer-sponsored insurance cost me $400/month for my family. They paid the rest.
As a self-employed person? $2,000/month for worse coverage.
That's $24,000 a year just for the privilege of having an insurance card in my wallet. Not for healthcare. Not for medicine. Just for the card.
The Deductible Destruction
But wait, it gets worse. That $24,000 doesn't buy me healthcare. It buys me the right to pay full price for healthcare until I spend another $10,000.
- Daughter's strep throat? Full price: $295
- Wife's MRI? Full price: $2,500
- My blood work? Full price: $847
- Son's broken finger? Full price: $3,200
All out of pocket. All on top of the $2,000 monthly premium.
The Final Insult: Coinsurance
Even after hitting the $10,000 deductible, insurance doesn't pay everything. They pay 80%. I pay 20%.
So if I need a $50,000 surgery after meeting my deductible:
- I pay: 20% = $10,000 more
- Total out of pocket: $44,000 for the year
Real Bills from My Real Life
Let me show you actual bills from my last year of self-employment:
Q1: The Slow Bleed
- January premium: $2,000
- February premium: $2,000
- March premium: $2,000
- Daughter's ear infection: $180
- My annual physical: $0 (only thing covered!)
- Wife's therapist: $200/session x 8 = $1,600
Q2: The Accident
- April premium: $2,000
- May premium: $2,000
- June premium: $2,000
- Son's skateboard accident (ER): $4,800
- Follow-up orthopedic visits: $900
Q3: The Chronic Issue
- July premium: $2,000
- August premium: $2,000
- September premium: $2,000
- Wife's mysterious stomach pain workup: $3,400
Q4: The Breaking Point
- October premium: $2,000
- November premium: $2,000
- December premium: $2,000
- Running total for year: $34,880
- Still hadn't hit deductible
- Insurance had paid: $0
That's when I did the math for the following year and realized it would be the same. Or worse.
Why This Is Uniquely Cruel to Self-Employed
No Employer Subsidy
Corporations typically pay 70-80% of employee premiums. As self-employed, you pay 100%.No Group Rates
Individual market plans cost more than group plans for worse coverage.Income Volatility
Your income varies month to month, but that $2,000 premium is due no matter what.The Tax "Benefit" Joke
Yes, you can deduct health insurance premiums if you're profitable. But a tax deduction isn't a discount. If you're in the 24% bracket, you still pay 76% of that $24,000.The Decision That Broke My Heart
I loved being self-employed. The freedom. The creativity. Building something of my own.
But the math didn't lie:
- Self-employed income: $90,000
- After health costs: $56,000
- After taxes: ~$40,000
- Monthly take-home: $3,333
Meanwhile, a corporate job offering $75,000 with benefits would net me more money.
The Alternatives I Desperately Researched
Option 1: Go Without Insurance
Bankruptcy from one medical emergency. Not an option with kids.Option 2: Catastrophic Plan
Lower premium ($1,200/month) but $15,000 deductible. Still $29,400 before help.Option 3: Health Sharing Ministries
Not real insurance. Can deny claims for any reason. Too risky.Option 4: Direct Primary Care
This was interesting. Services like MyPhysicianPlan offer unlimited primary care for a flat monthly fee, typically $75-200/month.I seriously considered combining MyPhysicianPlan with a true catastrophic plan. The math:
- MyPhysicianPlan: $150/month ($1,800/year)
- Catastrophic coverage: $800/month ($9,600/year)
- Total: $11,400/year vs $34,000
It would have handled most of our routine care needs without the deductible applying. But with three kids, I was too scared to not have "full" insurance.
The Conversation That Ended Everything
My wife found me at 2 AM staring at spreadsheets.
"What are you doing?"
"Trying to make the math work."
"And?"
"It doesn't. We'd need to make $130,000 just to match what we'd have at a $75,000 corporate job."
"So?"
"So I'm updating my resume."
She cried. I cried. The American Dream of self-employment died at our kitchen table, killed by health insurance math.
What Would Have Saved My Business
Any of these would have let me stay self-employed:
But we don't have any of those. We have a system that actively punishes entrepreneurship.
The Numbers for Anyone Considering Self-Employment
Before you quit your job, calculate:
- Current employer insurance value: (Their contribution + yours) x 12
- Self-employed insurance cost: Premium x 12 + Deductible
- The difference: This is your real pay cut
For me:
- Employer insurance value: $20,000/year
- Self-employed cost: $34,000/year
- Difference: $54,000/year
That's right. Going self-employed effectively cost me $54,000 in additional expenses.
The Alternative I Wish I'd Known About Sooner
If I had to do it again, I'd seriously consider alternatives like MyPhysicianPlan from day one.
For routine care - which is 90% of our family's needs - direct primary care could have handled it for a fraction of the cost. No deductibles. No surprise bills. Just a flat monthly fee.
Combined with a high-deductible plan for true emergencies, it might have made the math work. But I was too locked into the "must have traditional insurance" mindset.
The Aftermath
I took a corporate job in January 2024.
Insurance cost: $450/month Deductible: $2,000 Employer pays: The rest
My take-home is higher. My stress is lower. My family has healthcare.
But I die a little inside every morning when I commute to an office to build someone else's dream.
The Bottom Line
$34,000 before insurance helps. That's not insurance. That's extortion.
It's a system designed to chain entrepreneurs to corporate jobs. It's a boot on the neck of innovation. It's the reason America is losing its entrepreneurial edge.
I had a profitable business. I had happy clients. I had a growing future.
What I didn't have was $34,000 to light on fire before insurance would help.
So I quit. Not because my business failed. But because American healthcare succeeded in crushing another entrepreneur's spirit.
Don't let it crush yours. Do the math before you leap. Consider all alternatives. And maybe, just maybe, you'll find a way to make it work where I couldn't.
But whatever you do, don't assume health insurance will actually insure your health. At $34,000 before they help, it's more like a very expensive lottery ticket you hope you never have to cash.
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Note: Costs based on actual 2023-2024 family plan quotes in Florida. Individual costs vary by state, age, and family size.